Tuesday, September 26, 2006 @4:56 PM
so this is how i spend almost
3 hours trying to drain away
depression that is oh so reluctant to leave- due to me being unable to bawl my eyes out, eat the depression away, or curse anything or everything that i think of, (fasting lah) im left with staring blankly at the computer, thinking of what to do now; how i'm supposed to break the news to my mum that my prelim results were nothing but atrocious; how i'm going to eliminate all inteferences, straying me away from what i need to do, most importantly, what i SHOULD be doing.
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God, talk to me. I know i've not been aknowledging your presence lately, but i DO still think of you. It's weird. i've been feeling a slight detachement from you, and it's beginning to scare me, alot. Let me know you're still listening to my prayers and aimless wanders. Faith is what i STILL hold strong within me. Thank you for all the paths you've cleared free of leaves for me; now i can see where i need to go. Thank you for the barriers you've lifted for me; now i can think clearly, and so can others. Thank you for the mornings i sometimes dread, that you make possible; i can live now.Amin.